I need to talk.
I'll probably post this way after I feel the way I am right now, cause anyway, everyone I've tried to contact has seen but not answered what I've been trying to say.
Right now, I feel trapped in a continuous circle. It's like everything happens again and again, but I can't help myself from following that said circle. My insides are burning from rage, I feel more and more lost, my motivation gets erased as soon as it has the chance to. Everything is always so sudden, my brain has a hard time processing it - like, what the fuck is going on?
I eat my veggies, go to the gym, hydrate myself, take care of myself... what more do I need to do?
I don't understand how it can go so well for a few days and then, the elastic snaps right into my face without notice.
You're not the first one who decides to stop talking to me all of the sudden... and you'll probably won't be the last. I just don't get how we can go on a date with someone, text heart emojis, kisses, cuddle with them and the next day, it's like it never happen.
I'm supposed to tell myself that it's normal, that it's the generation we're living in, but I can't bring myself to actually think that way because it just seems so... crazy. Unreal, distorted from reality.
What am I doing wrong that could possibly turn them all away? Is it my humor? My face without any trace of cosmetic products? The way I eat, talk, walk, act? Because I'm starting to think I'm the problem. Everyone wants to be with someone, that person just ain't me because of hundred of reasons that just resonates as lies to me.
I truly, truly and deeply, don't get it. I don't understand, I really don't.
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I can't believe after all those months, those days, those weeks, days and hours, even minutes, this shit still haunts me.
Yeah I went on Tinder after my breakup, doesn't most of everyone? It sucks. It really sucks.
Who I was last year isn't NEARLY close to who I currently am today, I don't even think I'm the same person I was a month, let alone a week ago.v
Right now, I feel trapped in a continuous circle. It's like everything happens again and again, but I can't help myself from following that said circle. My insides are burning from rage, I feel more and more lost, my motivation gets erased as soon as it has the chance to. Everything is always so sudden, my brain has a hard time processing it - like, what the fuck is going on?
I eat my veggies, go to the gym, hydrate myself, take care of myself... what more do I need to do?
I don't understand how it can go so well for a few days and then, the elastic snaps right into my face without notice.
You're not the first one who decides to stop talking to me all of the sudden... and you'll probably won't be the last. I just don't get how we can go on a date with someone, text heart emojis, kisses, cuddle with them and the next day, it's like it never happen.
I'm supposed to tell myself that it's normal, that it's the generation we're living in, but I can't bring myself to actually think that way because it just seems so... crazy. Unreal, distorted from reality.
What am I doing wrong that could possibly turn them all away? Is it my humor? My face without any trace of cosmetic products? The way I eat, talk, walk, act? Because I'm starting to think I'm the problem. Everyone wants to be with someone, that person just ain't me because of hundred of reasons that just resonates as lies to me.
I truly, truly and deeply, don't get it. I don't understand, I really don't.
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I can't believe after all those months, those days, those weeks, days and hours, even minutes, this shit still haunts me.
Yeah I went on Tinder after my breakup, doesn't most of everyone? It sucks. It really sucks.
Who I was last year isn't NEARLY close to who I currently am today, I don't even think I'm the same person I was a month, let alone a week ago.v
