My reality tv experience!
Before anything, I'd like to mention that this is MY experience. Other's may vary, and this is my reality and how I felt at that moment. I don't want you to send anyone mentioned any mean spirited or negative comments, I just want to talk about my experience from back in 2016. Since we don't have news concerning the show, I let myself talk about it (haven't read my contract so).
A lot of memories are blurry, but I had a notebook during this whole experience so I could note what was happening and how I was feeling. If was short cause I didn't want anyone to know I was writing and I was hiding this book underneath my mattress. Some stuff happened and I didn't documented it, and since this is two years ago, it's kinda blurry in my mind.
For putting you into context, it was My New Best Friend from Noémie Dufresne, and it was Paris Hilton's show concept but the competition was more like America's Next Top Model... anyway.
- Putting you into context -
On Concoura, in 2015, I signed up as a joke at the Ma Nouvelle Meilleure Amie show since YOLO, I'm Melissa Smith and will, one day, be the master of all trolls (on the internet).
You know, people that know me KNEW that I was joking around, obviously, but I think I came in 19th position, something like that. I still find it funny how I wrote I'm less pretty than you, so you'll never be jealous (I'm an artist).
A few days before, I went at their office in Longueuil so I could do my audition. Okay, I exaggerated a bit saying I liked to party and limousines, even tho it wasn't true, but elsewhere, I was pretty authentic even tho my main goal was to troll her. Unfortunately, karma took care of me and my mental health, so I couldn't troll for too long.
(the show's host and Noémie)
For my part, I came there for the go and I was sooo stressed not being on time.
I see one of the girls arriving first (J) and she seems so nice, it encourages me for what's to come, even tho I know, deep down, that it's a competition.
Thursday
- We arrived in a limo, when we arrived they ordered pizza, they also filmed the show's intro, which is our meeting with Noémie (Dufresne). We also, during the whole ride and in the small house, hanged out with Dylan (Demers).
I was really scared because I didn't know where we were going. You know, _____ from Montreal, that says nothing to me, are we going to Gramby or in the middle or nowhere? We ended up in St-Alphonse-de-Kildare, that I realized, later, since during the challenge where we had to do groceries, I saw the windows store in St-Ambroise-de-Kildare where my parents bought the windows for our house in St-Séverin. Anyway, it's waaaay after Joliette. (to make it short)
Friday
- We filmed the show's credit, ran, made a drinking contest as well as dining and partying with Noemie.
... on earth.
Okay so that's what I wrote in my notebook lmao as a whole, they woke us up super early I believe but you know, at the end of the day, they didn't even do their mother fucking pictures UNLESS I'm mixed up with the intro? Anyway.
Concerning the drinks contest, we had to drink a sample from Noemie's favorite drink and we had to do it from what we thoguht it was, and FUCK the girl who won made a rhum and coke since she didn't like fruit and vegetables (it was a fruity type of drink)........... 'huge slap in the face for us, the dumbasses, who put up some effort, especially me who never drank alcohol so tried to mimic the color (I'm a piece of shit).
Here is our wonderful team;
It has five shares from people laughing at me and people tagging their friends because you know, Melissa walking for the first time in heels bigger than my boo's dick is fun, we can read pure gems such as;
she has difficulty going up haha
still funny
i think you were going at St-Julienne's school but i'm not sure
yeah she was going to school with us :p
that's what I was thinking lol
perfect representation of us wearing heels
HAhahahahahahahahaha
Whaatttt
It's crazy we can say to everyone that we know her
Fuck i'm not feeling right
not easy Annie walking with heels😂
holy shit it's mel!
she really truggles with her heels
OOps struggling?
I'm laughing
LOl why am i tagues on this ahahahah
Lmaoooo check her out😂
That moment when you struggling going up the stairs
Sick
Can i die
same
Hahaha
I'm crying
hahahaha
Wooow
It feels like we're watching Les feux de l'amour
The girl looks really bad!
holy shit that's funny
ahahahah
I hope she's your best friend
ok let's just say I'm better than her walking with heelsa😂
DAMNNNN😂
OMG
Poor girl...
wtf
WHAT IS HAPPENING
😱😂
But why is she koked like that?
Ho! So it was serious, this show!?!?
hahahahaha
i feel pity
yo when you don't know how to walk with heels
OK! Haha!!
poor her, she has difficulty walking with heels!
didn't you wanted to sign up?😂
I hope you're kidding
🙄 hahaha forget that anyway i dont need a best friend,,, youre here
💁🏻
ahahaha yeah i'm just messing with you, this new show seems so funny! we'll laugh about this in fall!
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I can't believe it
hahaha wtf
Damn hahaha
me when i walk with heels
Hahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha the fuck is thiiiis
🎉
Cute
Lolll it's true that it's funny when she walks
I am so gonna tag you at each participant😂
hahahahahaha
Oh boy I'm panicking
She's struggling I think
???
:((
Legendary!!!!
Holy fuck she doesn't even know how to walk with her heels! And I can't believe that this show will come to live, such a shitty show
It's so stupid seriously it's a real joke
Plus, the cover shot for Noemie.... have you seen her boobs FUCK! Impossible! It's like if i tried to have my boobs looking like this, IMPOSSIBLE😂
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She just padded the shit outta it! she thinks she's too important I think
she's trying to look like Kylie and to do her show like Paris, she's just crazy
I know, she's totally insane! She'll never be as beautiful as Kylie!
Shit hahahah
Thanks Victoria for making me discovering this, really appreciate it
bougherville
what makes me laugh the most is the camera at the end filming into the sky but i'm sure it's just her falling
I'm laughing so hard
Nice realisation, wow
seems rough to walk with heels
The struggle is real with the shoes
fuck
holy shit
wtf
I puked in my mouth
lol
we missed our luck
i really wanted to do it
i think she's struggling to walk with her heels
hahaha you think
not really chic
in what world are we living...
wtffffffffffffff
it's so ridiculous i'm laughing hard check out how she's walking
shit....
how i walk with heels when i leave the bar
she's searching the attentionnnn
so me hahaha
hahahaha
she is walkinnnn with heels....
my dream
wow
hahahahah don't fall
the catwalk tho
i cant breathe hahah
that walk
nono lthe heels!
HAHAHAHA
I'm going to die omg replay
REPLAYYY x 100
she's struggling
oh my!
shieeet
Hahhahahahahahahahahaha
so whatever
It looks like she's going to fall at each step lol
She's struggling with her heels
emotional
poor girl
she can't walk with them... like me
i can't say i'm better HAHA
Exactly what we look like when we're walking with heels haha
omg nonnnnnnn lol
Someone has to kill this bitch, I can't take it
😭
😫
hahahahahhahaha wtf
this will be a BIG show! ok that was mean :(
she's struggling with heels lol
Haha not pretty to see loll😂
she was in my class in high school
omg
...
hahahaha
omg sick
she knows how to walk nicely
how she walks hahaha
hahahaha omg
check her out hahah
hahaha i'm dead
she walks like a newborn horse
when you don't give a fuck
hahhaa
she doesn't even know how to walk with heels
shit
XD
if your best friend is making me you wear heels...
oh no hahaha
i bet 100$ on her
et lala...
omg uncofrtable
she seems to want to get up there quickly poor girl
it's certainly a joke hahaha
us if we walk with heels
hahahahaha cant take this anymore
not easy
lollllll soo comfortable with her heels
hahahahahahaha
check her walking
HAHAHAHAHA
it's so funny!
hahahahahahahahahhaa
the malaise is real
I can't she had trouble walking up those few steps hahahahhaahha
the little look at the end
lol she fat
i can't believe it
cute
bulkin'
mdr hiding the teeth
oh my god
fire
voila!
I don't neglect comments like;
You might bring her down, but she looks like she's the realest of the bunch!
It's not to be mean against this girl, hoping she'll understand what I mean, but I'm sure if the girl had huge fake tits, a body like Kylie Jenner and THEN she struggled with her heels you guys just wouldn't have made such a deal about it
People discourage me
STFU? If you're going to laugh at other people's weight, just donl,t say anything, anyway she aint chubby she just has curves
it's the first time she was wearing some give her a chance, pretty sure y'all were walking like that for the first time
maybe she wanted to try something new, people are so mean and ADORE laughing at others
maybe she just wanted to add a little bit of something to the look and me, personally, i find it somewhat good with heels and they're really cute, I'm just saying people mock easily, and i'm pretty sure of half the people judging, half laugh but can't do better
Wow, people are so mean! Preach bringing someone down for no reason behind your screen!
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What's funny is that half the people are mean but I'm pretty sure they can't even walk with heels themselves, how you said, it's easy bringing people down behind a computer!
But hey, I searched for it, right?
Back to what I was saying, I was talking about saturday.
During the pyjama party and meeting Noemie, I wanted her to add me on Facebook, took her cellphone and unblocked myself because when it was the huge Noemie with her snake dance trend, I laughed at her and she blocked me. But I didn't tell her that.
Sunday
- I cleaned some stuff, woke up before anyone else, put some makeup on, had to decide who was going to do the groceries, played with the PS3, put makeup on Nadia and Jennifer, went to do the groceries with Nadia, called mom, hugged, slept by his side and kissed Michael and drank a bit much and puked in my bed and in the bathroom, I cried a lot and I didn't even slept in my own bed; I woke up in underwear and bra.
Yeah after parties, I found it odd seeing glasses everywhere so my vaginal instinct ;-) was stronger than I and I was always cleaning up. I was often wearing makeup and not often removing the makeup because I didn't wanted to look like a ugly bitch on television.
I remember the grocery stuff, we had to choose two people to do the groceries with a budget that I THINK I'M NOT SURE WAS 40$ and they chose me and Nadia. We bought dog treats cause we said Melina was a bitch (she wasn't, but we had to be mean and rude), banana popsicles because Gabrielle didn't like fruit and vegetables, pabst beer for Kevin, obviously, a magazine (to piss people off and since we didn't have access to phone and social media), I don't remember if there was something else LOL but it really was a budget for essentials and we just bought some random shit.
I THINK I called my mom because it was mother's day and I was sad that all the family was at my grandmas' and I was missing out on that just to drink.
Actually, speaking of drinking my face out, people were making me taste some random shit even they were holding me almost against my will shit I never tasted before... it tasted like rubbing alcohol. Because that's the thrill, right? Making a girl that never drank totally drunk? GOOD. After that, they wanted (and especially Pamela, Noemie's dumbass makeup 'artist' that was putting on makeup like shit and that her boyfriend was participating in the show) that I kiss her boyfriend to spice things up on the show, and I never admitted this but when he kissed me I kinda went with it, but shit I was so drunk, I felt like my head was in a complete differently world, I remember puking, crying that I loved Felix and apologizing (I still love you Felix and I'm still sorry, oh my god I didn't diserved you), I just remember falling asleep in another bed and waking up with my underwear and bras... oh, well.
Monday
- paintball, hurt both my hands, our team won, spa with Noemie and we choose who gets eliminated (Nadia and Kevin), I told her to unblock me LMAO learned that Gabrielle steals shit? eliminations (they were mad at me cause I kind of spoiled it) Gabrielle and Kevin left even tho Gabrielle, because of the drinking contest, was apparently immune to being eliminated, cried. Spa with Noemie, Pamela was mad because I said that I was doing a little bit of cleaning but she said it was her since the beginning (she was paid for it). I told Michael some secrets about me.
Tuesday
- can't eat a whole lot but there aint a lot of food left. Nadia and Jennifer went on a VTT trip with Noemie, and Nadia has the opportunity to dine alone with her while Melina with be doing the cooking. I told Nadia some personal stuff. Due to Nadia's sayings, Noemie said I was cute :) During that time, other folks and I watched the Mean Girls movie and talked about private stuff. Noemie, after that, danced with us and partied. Spoke about Michael. I drank 75% alcohol 25% juice, Noemie played with my hair, Adem told me to go far in life, ect, Noemie really wants to bring me clubbing, she like promised it to me. We played limbo and I was holding Michael's hand to 'do' the limbo.
Yeah, I think it was because they didn't get the grocery store sponsorship they hoped they would get, so they wanted us to cut back on food but holy shit, during the week I spent there, even with all the high calorie alcohol we drank, I lost 10 mother fucking pounds, I was so hungry it was terrible!
If not, it was nice, I had never seen the movie Mean Girls. We were pretending that the PS3 didn't had Internet BUT that Netflix was working (we're pieces of shit) and Youtube so for make Pamela mad, I was putting Usual Suspects by Hollywood Undead in the morning.
Wednesday
- I folded Noemie's clothing :) We will do a water balloon fight. Actually, it was a game where we had to answer some questions (about Noemie) and if we had an incorrect answer, we had a water balloon dropped onto our head, if not, we were getting 1+ point and, when we were reaching five points, we were winning to go do parachuting (with Noemie); me and Melina have won. I was pretty anxious about going, but hey, we have to try new stuff in love (+going on a plane) and we'll also dine with Noemie. Pamela will probably enter the cast grrrr! We ate, everyone said I should be one of the cast member to leave the adventure because I sleep a lot and I'm a country girl (they're all from the city) anyway I said Jennifer and Nadia should leave, I thought that me or Michael would be leaving, actually nobody was, and they filmed me smoking a cigarette grrr I smoke because everyone was yelling at each other, there was fighting and obviously, I don't like that, and we'll see if Pamela will follow the adventure, also Noemie went to complain to us she was mad.
Yeah, me and the laundry machine were best friends,
I was kind of proud, for a girl that was blocked from Dufresne, to know the answers to obvious answers and yeah, the questions were improvised, and that resulted in 7545486 takes, really unprofessional.
UPDATE: We never went in that fucking parachute lmao so complete bullshit.
I was hoping from all my heart that Pamela wouldn't enter the show, fuck you're useless to the human race and especially to this show ANYWAY I think it's that they found that we weren't hating each other enough so they wanted to stir shit up.
I found it sad that everybody wanted me to leave because BITCH, exactly I'm not a thin cool famous mannequin from Montreal, I'm the complete opposite, the show needs me to mix things up and for some plot twist.
Noemie went to be mad at us cause we were bitching the show while the fight but our mics (that we were even sleeping with) were open, fuck our lives.
Thursday
- Did some cleaning, opened the door to a construction worker after fifteen minutes that he was knocking (ringing) the door but you know, I'm not at home; PL (the host), Noemie and Anthony (her manager) didn't slept here, we'll see when they'll arrive. Nadia, Mikael (her 'barman') and Melina went to sleep when I woke up lol sometimes I google the show's Facebook page (without loging in, obviously) and I can't believe how mean people are int he comments omg. Spoke with Mikael ('barman'). Pamela is mad because she said it ain't true that she sucked her boyfriend in the bathroom, fucking liar they heard you. Noemie's brother, a "chief" is here to cook and he's with his girlfriend and friend, today it's a free day, nothing to film :) And food refill! So because the production team wasn't here today, we have like four activities to do per day from tomorrow to Wednesday. I put some pictures from my wallet I had from Mia, Nico, Mylene and Felix on the wall and all afternoon I was on the verge of tears cause I miss them. Parachute might be cancelled tomorrow because there's a 90% chance of rain :( We'll know tomorrow grr OMG we were supposed to dine together and we were dancing to pass the time and since we drank alcohol, Michael wasn't as shy and was getting closer to us and he touched my butt and decollete, anyway, then Nadia and Jennifer were dancing pretty close to him and suddenly, Pamela went crazy and she went, wanting to battle Nadia and hurt her eye and Pamela has a cut, anyway I cried because I hate fighting and David from the production pulled me aside and hugged me, anyway Pamela said something that I didn't understand and then she looked at me and said 'not too loud, she'll spill everything' omg shut the fuck up motherfucking ugly shitty cow. She apologized to Nadia and now she's laughing at me cause I'm writing, wtf. Anyway, I hide this notebook underneath my mattress, and I told some private shit to Makael 'barman' and Adem. During the fight, Nadia was like YEAH WELL SHE (me) KISSED HIM (Michael) so I was pretty scared, I went and took a shower (she also complained cause I 'exposed' her cellphone to humidity BITCH you ain't even supposed to have it with you) and when I got out the bathroom she laughed at me and seems to often smirk some comments, she's so annoying that mother fucking fake ass barbie but eh, Mikael ('barman') told me to swear not to tell anyone and I didn't, but in two days (the next elimination), she's supposed to leave, anyway I hope it's true, fucking shit. :(
Anyway, I found it funny to bring makeup artist, barmans and chiefs while it was only a random bitch, a bar employee and Noemie's brother (that seemed the most normal and nice, I'll give him that). His brother's girlfriend was such a sweetheart as well as his friend but I was getting alone so well with his gilfriend that, just for random information, was pregnant.
It pissed me off that it was a day lost and they were acting like it was our fault while they're the one that went back to Longueuil/ Montreal to sleep and that did nothing all day while we were waiting for them.
I was so happy from the food refill, they had no idea. But yeah, effectively, I passed the whole day on the verge of tears cause I was missing my boyfriend and family.
If not yeah Michael was dancing a lil bit with us and Pamela went bat shit crazy but she only targeted Nadia, probably because she's 100 times prettier than her, but dumb bitch you wanted me to kiss your boyfriend two days ago!
I hate Pamela more and more and the lack of medication plus the alcohol make it more obvious, I hate her a whole lot.
If not, to this day, I found nothing about Pamela being a porno actress.
And it's pretty complicated to explain the elimination.
Friday
- If it doesn't rain: parachute. Can't believe that bitch yesterday wanted to read my notebook uhhh bitch no. So today, after the brunch (Melina and Jennifer only), we did a makeup challenge, it was the one who could do her makeup WITHOUT a mirror but fuck Melina had one on her palette, did her makeup perfectly and won, what a mother fucking cheater! I wasn't limiting my words in the confessional anyway after that we were going clubbing but AS WE WERE I complained so much that they let me fix the liner. Everybody was laughing at me but fuck, I tried, after that we went at Tim Hortons and I paid people stuff (my hunger took over), 10$ later we went at the Muzique club (something like that) in VIP in a limousine, I drank too much orange juice/ vodka. They were two weirdos that were flirting with me, one kissed my hand and the other one my cheeks, thank god I had my hair in my face, I hid myself in the bathroom and David went to pick me up, he's an angel! The waitress was just SO nice, after that on the way back we were so fucked up and not on purpose (since this limo was smaller than the other one) we were really restraint as far as space is concerned, I accidentally touched Michael's thigh so Pamela removed it rudely while complaining, Anthony was really mad at how drunk we were and the limo chauffeur almost left us on the side of the highway:( I was leaning on the limo's backdoor to rest a bit and Pamela was bothering me so I said ''get off me fucking bitch'' (it slid by itself, oops!) and then she said ''well you're on your own'' ok. I unfortunately couldn't stop myself from touching Jennifer's breast, I really don't understand why! And she lost my Flower Beauty lipstick in the shade mauve over :( OK! And in the bathroom, Pamela took a snapchat with us so I told her to send it to me and she said 'lmao u have fb?' omg shut the fuck up! We went at McDonald's and I saw Jessica Little from Havre-Jeunesse (high school) oh my fucking god how ashamed I was, and arriving at the lake house we hung out with Noemie and she unblocked me from facebook yay and she told me to be less cry-baby and to sleep less but if not, that she adored me. She was laying on me saying it's comfortable (big boobs) lol I spent the night talking with Pierre-Luc, Anthony and Jennifer, we smoke, finished the champagne bottle lmao I learned that Pamela was a pornstar! Yeah the girl that was saying she was soooooo shy in front of the cameras, I'll do my research! PL seemed serious saying that I'd be eliminated tomorrow yo I'm fucking scared :( Oh, and Noemie thinks Nadia and Melina are fake, Pam and Jen kissed and at McDo's, Noemie almost got into a figh with some 12-13 year old because they were looking at her funny anyway since Pam is here, I'm hiding this notebook underneath my mattress!
In the end, we didn't parachute, but I don't think this surprises anyone. Pamela wanted to read my notebook, as if I was going to show her that I'm bitching her non-stop!
As for the brunch, yeah we were getting bored while they had fun! lol
The makeup challenge with the fact that Melina had a mirror on her palette and that she won frustrated me so bad but in a way that I thought was exaggerated and non-comprehensive but shit that I insulted her in the confession room (I'm not nice).
Except for the vodka and orange juice, I didn't liked clubbing because I was really scared and anxious because of the weird guys and since we were with Noemie, I felt as if we were the freakshow and I don't even know how to dance, so not that fun... but as I said, David helped me, he's a sweetheart.
I remember, we were on the highway, for those who know, between Mascouche and St-Lin at St-Esprit almost and I was PRAYING that he wouldn't leave us on the side of the highway.
One thing that pissed me off, it's that when we're acting like dumbasses GO LET'S FILM but Anthony (Noemie's manager) was shutting down the camera the second that SHE looked like a dumbass and that she was took drunk, I understand why but I still thought it was unfair.
I was really starting not to be able to endure Pamela anymore.
Concerning the lipstick that Jennifer lost, I was scared cause Walmart was discontinuing Flower Beauty at that time BUT I was able to find a full size, THANK GOD!
Saturday
- No sleep night, I really should go to sleep! Eww there was a huge spider in the bed, I killed itt with my hand. Pamela is mad because yesterday, I was so drunk I popped Michael's zit and now it's going to scar him forever (to her saying) anyway it hurt him a lot lol I have a lot of zits too but he's dumb cause I told him to swear not to tell her so she wouldn't be mad at me but he's an hypocrite, so. Challenge of the day: we had to write Noemie a song and sing it to her, and three winners would go out to a restaurant (which we didn't go to yesterday) and Pamela didn't wanted to participate (to the singing contest/ challenge) and the winners were me, Michael and Nadia, and downstars, Pamela was complaining because of that so I told her she just had to participate for fuck sake. And shit went down and Melina was almost crying since we were going in a restaurant she sooooo wanted to go, fucking shit, cry, it'll make you feel better! she was bragging about going to chic restaurants five times per week and that it was costing 500$ each time for three people and now she's doing her spoiled brat, yo I never go at the restaurant at all! Anyway, the diner was super cute and good and we said we'd eliminate Pamela or Jennifer, also, Michael said he liked hanging out with us but that Pamela is too controlling and possessive (no shit) and now it's going to be the eliminations. Me and Michael has been eliminated because Noemie said she didn't wanted to change me. I cried and Pamela was raging cause she thought she'd be the one eliminated. David drove me to Vanessa's (ex best friend) house.
OMG I so remember how mad she was when I couldn't resist popping his zit HAHAHAHAHAHAH I fucking love myself sometimes, the alcohol was an excuse, aww poor thing that I ruined his mannequin face (like I give a shit), it's karma for telling everything to his dumb bitch.
I wish I remembered the song I sand LOL and I seriously couldn't get over the sadness that Melina and Pamela were feeling towards us going out to eat but fuck! I seriously almost never go out to eat (even McDonald's rare) so I just thought Melina was a spoiled brat and concerning Pamela, well you just had to sing if you wanted to read, you suck dick but can't sing rhymes on tape? the fuck outta here.
Diner with Noemie I was so savage, Michael gave me his chicken plate and it's crazy, even after two plates my stomach was growling I was so litteraly STARVING anyway.
I so remember when I didn't have any of my medication left and I told, to Pam, to shut her dumbass mouth up anyway LMAO I was only sad to be eliminated cause we were in the middle of the night! 2am
Anyway, there's probably stuff I forgot to mention.
A lot of memories are blurry, but I had a notebook during this whole experience so I could note what was happening and how I was feeling. If was short cause I didn't want anyone to know I was writing and I was hiding this book underneath my mattress. Some stuff happened and I didn't documented it, and since this is two years ago, it's kinda blurry in my mind.
For putting you into context, it was My New Best Friend from Noémie Dufresne, and it was Paris Hilton's show concept but the competition was more like America's Next Top Model... anyway.
- Putting you into context -
On Concoura, in 2015, I signed up as a joke at the Ma Nouvelle Meilleure Amie show since YOLO, I'm Melissa Smith and will, one day, be the master of all trolls (on the internet).
Why do you wanna become Noémie's next best friend?
Because like Noémie, I have a big heart and like helping people. I'm lest pretty than you, so you'll never...
You know, people that know me KNEW that I was joking around, obviously, but I think I came in 19th position, something like that. I still find it funny how I wrote I'm less pretty than you, so you'll never be jealous (I'm an artist).
A few days before, I went at their office in Longueuil so I could do my audition. Okay, I exaggerated a bit saying I liked to party and limousines, even tho it wasn't true, but elsewhere, I was pretty authentic even tho my main goal was to troll her. Unfortunately, karma took care of me and my mental health, so I couldn't troll for too long.
(the show's host and Noémie)
For my part, I came there for the go and I was sooo stressed not being on time.
I see one of the girls arriving first (J) and she seems so nice, it encourages me for what's to come, even tho I know, deep down, that it's a competition.
Thursday
- We arrived in a limo, when we arrived they ordered pizza, they also filmed the show's intro, which is our meeting with Noémie (Dufresne). We also, during the whole ride and in the small house, hanged out with Dylan (Demers).
I was really scared because I didn't know where we were going. You know, _____ from Montreal, that says nothing to me, are we going to Gramby or in the middle or nowhere? We ended up in St-Alphonse-de-Kildare, that I realized, later, since during the challenge where we had to do groceries, I saw the windows store in St-Ambroise-de-Kildare where my parents bought the windows for our house in St-Séverin. Anyway, it's waaaay after Joliette. (to make it short)
Friday
- We filmed the show's credit, ran, made a drinking contest as well as dining and partying with Noemie.
The host during the drink contest.
Plane view from where we were living.
I don't know what this is but I'm puting it here.
I was so ashamed.
Especially there where we had to twerk and I don't know how, ANYWAY.
I'm the less sporty person ...
Saturday
- (x) Photoshoot (of others and inside), cleaning up, sleeping, diner with questions, people laughed at me cause I only kissed/ slept with two people and pyjama party (meeting Noemie).Okay so that's what I wrote in my notebook lmao as a whole, they woke us up super early I believe but you know, at the end of the day, they didn't even do their mother fucking pictures UNLESS I'm mixed up with the intro? Anyway.
Concerning the drinks contest, we had to drink a sample from Noemie's favorite drink and we had to do it from what we thoguht it was, and FUCK the girl who won made a rhum and coke since she didn't like fruit and vegetables (it was a fruity type of drink)........... 'huge slap in the face for us, the dumbasses, who put up some effort, especially me who never drank alcohol so tried to mimic the color (I'm a piece of shit).
Here is our wonderful team;
And I can't NOT talk about the video below;
without talking about the comments on it....
It has five shares from people laughing at me and people tagging their friends because you know, Melissa walking for the first time in heels bigger than my boo's dick is fun, we can read pure gems such as;
she has difficulty going up haha
still funny
i think you were going at St-Julienne's school but i'm not sure
yeah she was going to school with us :p
that's what I was thinking lol
perfect representation of us wearing heels
HAhahahahahahahahaha
Whaatttt
It's crazy we can say to everyone that we know her
Fuck i'm not feeling right
not easy Annie walking with heels
😂holy shit it's mel!
she really truggles with her heels
OOps struggling?
I'm laughing
LOl why am i tagues on this ahahahah
Lmaoooo check her out
😂That moment when you struggling going up the stairs
Sick
Can i die
same
Hahaha
I'm crying
hahahaha
Wooow
ahahahahahah
It feels like we're watching Les feux de l'amour
The girl looks really bad!
holy shit that's funny
ahahahah
I hope she's your best friend
ok let's just say I'm better than her walking with heelsa
😂DAMNNNN
😂OMG
Poor girl...
wtf
WHAT IS HAPPENING
😱😂But why is she koked like that?
Ho! So it was serious, this show!?!?
hahahahaha
i feel pity
yo when you don't know how to walk with heels
OK! Haha!!
poor her, she has difficulty walking with heels!
didn't you wanted to sign up?
😂I hope you're kidding
🙄 hahaha forget that anyway i dont need a best friend,,, youre here💁🏻ahahaha yeah i'm just messing with you, this new show seems so funny! we'll laugh about this in fall!
🙈I can't believe it
hahaha wtf
Damn hahaha
me when i walk with heels
Hahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha the fuck is thiiiis
🎉Cute
Lolll it's true that it's funny when she walks
I am so gonna tag you at each participant
😂hahahahahaha
Oh boy I'm panicking
She's struggling I think
???
:((
Legendary!!!!
Holy fuck she doesn't even know how to walk with her heels! And I can't believe that this show will come to live, such a shitty show
It's so stupid seriously it's a real joke
Plus, the cover shot for Noemie.... have you seen her boobs FUCK! Impossible! It's like if i tried to have my boobs looking like this, IMPOSSIBLE
😂👌🏾She just padded the shit outta it! she thinks she's too important I think
she's trying to look like Kylie and to do her show like Paris, she's just crazyI know, she's totally insane! She'll never be as beautiful as Kylie!
Shit hahahah
Thanks Victoria for making me discovering this, really appreciate it
bougherville
what makes me laugh the most is the camera at the end filming into the sky but i'm sure it's just her falling
I'm laughing so hard
Nice realisation, wow
seems rough to walk with heels
The struggle is real with the shoes
fuck
holy shit
wtf
I puked in my mouth
lol
we missed our luck
i really wanted to do it
i think she's struggling to walk with her heels
hahaha you think
not really chic
in what world are we living...
wtffffffffffffff
it's so ridiculous i'm laughing hard check out how she's walking
shit....
how i walk with heels when i leave the bar
she's searching the attentionnnn
so me hahaha
hahahaha
she is walkinnnn with heels....
my dream
wow
hahahahah don't fall
the catwalk tho
i cant breathe hahah
that walk
nono lthe heels!
HAHAHAHA
I'm going to die omg replay
REPLAYYY x 100
she's struggling
oh my!
shieeet
Hahhahahahahahahahahaha
so whatever
It looks like she's going to fall at each step lol
She's struggling with her heels
emotional
poor girl
she can't walk with them... like me
i can't say i'm better HAHA
Exactly what we look like when we're walking with heels haha
omg nonnnnnnn lol
Someone has to kill this bitch, I can't take it
😭😫hahahahahhahaha wtf
this will be a BIG show! ok that was mean :(
she's struggling with heels lol
Haha not pretty to see loll
😂she was in my class in high school
omg
...
hahahaha
omg sick
she knows how to walk nicely
how she walks hahaha
hahahaha omg
check her out hahah
hahaha i'm dead
she walks like a newborn horse
when you don't give a fuck
hahhaa
she doesn't even know how to walk with heels
shit
XD
if your best friend is making me you wear heels...
oh no hahaha
i bet 100$ on her
et lala...
omg uncofrtable
she seems to want to get up there quickly poor girl
it's certainly a joke hahaha
us if we walk with heels
hahahahaha cant take this anymore
not easy
lollllll soo comfortable with her heels
hahahahahahaha
check her walking
HAHAHAHAHA
it's so funny!
hahahahahahahahahhaa
the malaise is real
I can't she had trouble walking up those few steps hahahahhaahha
the little look at the end
lol she fat
i can't believe it
cute
bulkin'
mdr hiding the teeth
oh my god
fire
voila!
I don't neglect comments like;
You might bring her down, but she looks like she's the realest of the bunch!
It's not to be mean against this girl, hoping she'll understand what I mean, but I'm sure if the girl had huge fake tits, a body like Kylie Jenner and THEN she struggled with her heels you guys just wouldn't have made such a deal about it
People discourage meSTFU? If you're going to laugh at other people's weight, just donl,t say anything, anyway she aint chubby she just has curves
it's the first time she was wearing some give her a chance, pretty sure y'all were walking like that for the first time
maybe she wanted to try something new, people are so mean and ADORE laughing at others
maybe she just wanted to add a little bit of something to the look and me, personally, i find it somewhat good with heels and they're really cute, I'm just saying people mock easily, and i'm pretty sure of half the people judging, half laugh but can't do better
Wow, people are so mean! Preach bringing someone down for no reason behind your screen!
👌🏻What's funny is that half the people are mean but I'm pretty sure they can't even walk with heels themselves, how you said, it's easy bringing people down behind a computer!
But hey, I searched for it, right?
Back to what I was saying, I was talking about saturday.
During the pyjama party and meeting Noemie, I wanted her to add me on Facebook, took her cellphone and unblocked myself because when it was the huge Noemie with her snake dance trend, I laughed at her and she blocked me. But I didn't tell her that.
Sunday
- I cleaned some stuff, woke up before anyone else, put some makeup on, had to decide who was going to do the groceries, played with the PS3, put makeup on Nadia and Jennifer, went to do the groceries with Nadia, called mom, hugged, slept by his side and kissed Michael and drank a bit much and puked in my bed and in the bathroom, I cried a lot and I didn't even slept in my own bed; I woke up in underwear and bra.
Yeah after parties, I found it odd seeing glasses everywhere so my vaginal instinct ;-) was stronger than I and I was always cleaning up. I was often wearing makeup and not often removing the makeup because I didn't wanted to look like a ugly bitch on television.
I remember the grocery stuff, we had to choose two people to do the groceries with a budget that I THINK I'M NOT SURE WAS 40$ and they chose me and Nadia. We bought dog treats cause we said Melina was a bitch (she wasn't, but we had to be mean and rude), banana popsicles because Gabrielle didn't like fruit and vegetables, pabst beer for Kevin, obviously, a magazine (to piss people off and since we didn't have access to phone and social media), I don't remember if there was something else LOL but it really was a budget for essentials and we just bought some random shit.
I THINK I called my mom because it was mother's day and I was sad that all the family was at my grandmas' and I was missing out on that just to drink.
Actually, speaking of drinking my face out, people were making me taste some random shit even they were holding me almost against my will shit I never tasted before... it tasted like rubbing alcohol. Because that's the thrill, right? Making a girl that never drank totally drunk? GOOD. After that, they wanted (and especially Pamela, Noemie's dumbass makeup 'artist' that was putting on makeup like shit and that her boyfriend was participating in the show) that I kiss her boyfriend to spice things up on the show, and I never admitted this but when he kissed me I kinda went with it, but shit I was so drunk, I felt like my head was in a complete differently world, I remember puking, crying that I loved Felix and apologizing (I still love you Felix and I'm still sorry, oh my god I didn't diserved you), I just remember falling asleep in another bed and waking up with my underwear and bras... oh, well.
Monday
- paintball, hurt both my hands, our team won, spa with Noemie and we choose who gets eliminated (Nadia and Kevin), I told her to unblock me LMAO learned that Gabrielle steals shit? eliminations (they were mad at me cause I kind of spoiled it) Gabrielle and Kevin left even tho Gabrielle, because of the drinking contest, was apparently immune to being eliminated, cried. Spa with Noemie, Pamela was mad because I said that I was doing a little bit of cleaning but she said it was her since the beginning (she was paid for it). I told Michael some secrets about me.
Yeah... paintball. Another thing I never done in my entire fucking life. I remember, it was a guy from my High School giving us the guns and protection lol anyway, obviously, the paint balls were pink. I got one in the face (in the holes for the mouth through the face mask), one on each end, I remember I was yelling so loud because it was hurting so bad I wasn't able to bear the pain but hey I have a low tolerance to pain anyway, I wrote that our team one but, in all honesty, I don't even remember who was on our team. Since we won, we had the opportunity to have a spa night with Noemie (jesus fucking christ it was cold outside and I'll never forget walking in the rock driveway without shoes because they were dirty from the paintball - dirt - anyway my life is a sketch). I wrote that we were choosing who had to leave with, in parenthesis, Nadia and Kevin, In my own opinion I think people were feeling some strong competition against Nadia since she was prettier than anybody else but Kevin it's just because we felt like he obviously wasn't in his comfort zone.
Concerning Gabrielle's stealking story, it's that I was looking for my makeup brushes and WHOOPS, there was like three quarters of my shit in HER bag... I've never been this mad, I panicked and wondered if, in the end, is there something else that was stolen from me? shit.
Indeed, I kinda spoiled who was going to be eliminated, I'm a piece of shit not able to keep anything to myself but I'm also easily manipulable anyway they were mad at me for it.
Gabrielle, apparently immune to the elimination due to the drink conteste where Noemie found her original since she made a rum and coke even tho the goal was to reproduce her drink, has been eliminated and was crying about it, I mean Noémie, you might say you make your own rules, you still didn't understand the concept of immune. It's at that point that the watchers, if this would have really been on tv, that this tv show is a huge piece of shitty improvisation that wasn't perfectly pull together. Kevin was also gone because Noemie didn't found that they were compatible enough to be best friends. It's at that point that I understood that I was going to leave soon because let's be honest, I don't have that much more in common than her, she's living a life that not only I don't live, but that except for the money and sponsorships, I'm not even interested in.
Even tho that, looking back, I don't think she's that rich, at least at that period of time, because her makeup was old Sephora and drugstore testers also LOL
During the spa, Pamela, the makeup artist that wasn't minding her own fucking business, was mad when I said that I was cleaning up, saying it was her... BITCH, except sucking your boyfriend in OUR ONLY BATHROOM, you did nothing except wasting valuable oxygen.
I regret saying personnal stuff to Michael because in the end, he's an asshole.
Tuesday
- can't eat a whole lot but there aint a lot of food left. Nadia and Jennifer went on a VTT trip with Noemie, and Nadia has the opportunity to dine alone with her while Melina with be doing the cooking. I told Nadia some personal stuff. Due to Nadia's sayings, Noemie said I was cute :) During that time, other folks and I watched the Mean Girls movie and talked about private stuff. Noemie, after that, danced with us and partied. Spoke about Michael. I drank 75% alcohol 25% juice, Noemie played with my hair, Adem told me to go far in life, ect, Noemie really wants to bring me clubbing, she like promised it to me. We played limbo and I was holding Michael's hand to 'do' the limbo.
Yeah, I think it was because they didn't get the grocery store sponsorship they hoped they would get, so they wanted us to cut back on food but holy shit, during the week I spent there, even with all the high calorie alcohol we drank, I lost 10 mother fucking pounds, I was so hungry it was terrible!
If not, it was nice, I had never seen the movie Mean Girls. We were pretending that the PS3 didn't had Internet BUT that Netflix was working (we're pieces of shit) and Youtube so for make Pamela mad, I was putting Usual Suspects by Hollywood Undead in the morning.
Wednesday
- I folded Noemie's clothing :) We will do a water balloon fight. Actually, it was a game where we had to answer some questions (about Noemie) and if we had an incorrect answer, we had a water balloon dropped onto our head, if not, we were getting 1+ point and, when we were reaching five points, we were winning to go do parachuting (with Noemie); me and Melina have won. I was pretty anxious about going, but hey, we have to try new stuff in love (+going on a plane) and we'll also dine with Noemie. Pamela will probably enter the cast grrrr! We ate, everyone said I should be one of the cast member to leave the adventure because I sleep a lot and I'm a country girl (they're all from the city) anyway I said Jennifer and Nadia should leave, I thought that me or Michael would be leaving, actually nobody was, and they filmed me smoking a cigarette grrr I smoke because everyone was yelling at each other, there was fighting and obviously, I don't like that, and we'll see if Pamela will follow the adventure, also Noemie went to complain to us she was mad.
Yeah, me and the laundry machine were best friends,
I was kind of proud, for a girl that was blocked from Dufresne, to know the answers to obvious answers and yeah, the questions were improvised, and that resulted in 7545486 takes, really unprofessional.
UPDATE: We never went in that fucking parachute lmao so complete bullshit.
I was hoping from all my heart that Pamela wouldn't enter the show, fuck you're useless to the human race and especially to this show ANYWAY I think it's that they found that we weren't hating each other enough so they wanted to stir shit up.
I found it sad that everybody wanted me to leave because BITCH, exactly I'm not a thin cool famous mannequin from Montreal, I'm the complete opposite, the show needs me to mix things up and for some plot twist.
Noemie went to be mad at us cause we were bitching the show while the fight but our mics (that we were even sleeping with) were open, fuck our lives.
Thursday
- Did some cleaning, opened the door to a construction worker after fifteen minutes that he was knocking (ringing) the door but you know, I'm not at home; PL (the host), Noemie and Anthony (her manager) didn't slept here, we'll see when they'll arrive. Nadia, Mikael (her 'barman') and Melina went to sleep when I woke up lol sometimes I google the show's Facebook page (without loging in, obviously) and I can't believe how mean people are int he comments omg. Spoke with Mikael ('barman'). Pamela is mad because she said it ain't true that she sucked her boyfriend in the bathroom, fucking liar they heard you. Noemie's brother, a "chief" is here to cook and he's with his girlfriend and friend, today it's a free day, nothing to film :) And food refill! So because the production team wasn't here today, we have like four activities to do per day from tomorrow to Wednesday. I put some pictures from my wallet I had from Mia, Nico, Mylene and Felix on the wall and all afternoon I was on the verge of tears cause I miss them. Parachute might be cancelled tomorrow because there's a 90% chance of rain :( We'll know tomorrow grr OMG we were supposed to dine together and we were dancing to pass the time and since we drank alcohol, Michael wasn't as shy and was getting closer to us and he touched my butt and decollete, anyway, then Nadia and Jennifer were dancing pretty close to him and suddenly, Pamela went crazy and she went, wanting to battle Nadia and hurt her eye and Pamela has a cut, anyway I cried because I hate fighting and David from the production pulled me aside and hugged me, anyway Pamela said something that I didn't understand and then she looked at me and said 'not too loud, she'll spill everything' omg shut the fuck up motherfucking ugly shitty cow. She apologized to Nadia and now she's laughing at me cause I'm writing, wtf. Anyway, I hide this notebook underneath my mattress, and I told some private shit to Makael 'barman' and Adem. During the fight, Nadia was like YEAH WELL SHE (me) KISSED HIM (Michael) so I was pretty scared, I went and took a shower (she also complained cause I 'exposed' her cellphone to humidity BITCH you ain't even supposed to have it with you) and when I got out the bathroom she laughed at me and seems to often smirk some comments, she's so annoying that mother fucking fake ass barbie but eh, Mikael ('barman') told me to swear not to tell anyone and I didn't, but in two days (the next elimination), she's supposed to leave, anyway I hope it's true, fucking shit. :(
Anyway, I found it funny to bring makeup artist, barmans and chiefs while it was only a random bitch, a bar employee and Noemie's brother (that seemed the most normal and nice, I'll give him that). His brother's girlfriend was such a sweetheart as well as his friend but I was getting alone so well with his gilfriend that, just for random information, was pregnant.
It pissed me off that it was a day lost and they were acting like it was our fault while they're the one that went back to Longueuil/ Montreal to sleep and that did nothing all day while we were waiting for them.
I was so happy from the food refill, they had no idea. But yeah, effectively, I passed the whole day on the verge of tears cause I was missing my boyfriend and family.
If not yeah Michael was dancing a lil bit with us and Pamela went bat shit crazy but she only targeted Nadia, probably because she's 100 times prettier than her, but dumb bitch you wanted me to kiss your boyfriend two days ago!
picture that my sister screenshoted from snapchat
no fucking idea what the other snaps were
funny story Noemie took a photo with me for snap and my sister never saw it and was always following the snapchat stories to keep up with me so Noemie deleted it, meaning she was ashamed of me fuck you Dufresne
David, from the production, to me, was the only normal person and you'll see why in the following days.no fucking idea what the other snaps were
funny story Noemie took a photo with me for snap and my sister never saw it and was always following the snapchat stories to keep up with me so Noemie deleted it, meaning she was ashamed of me fuck you Dufresne
I hate Pamela more and more and the lack of medication plus the alcohol make it more obvious, I hate her a whole lot.
If not, to this day, I found nothing about Pamela being a porno actress.
And it's pretty complicated to explain the elimination.
Friday
- If it doesn't rain: parachute. Can't believe that bitch yesterday wanted to read my notebook uhhh bitch no. So today, after the brunch (Melina and Jennifer only), we did a makeup challenge, it was the one who could do her makeup WITHOUT a mirror but fuck Melina had one on her palette, did her makeup perfectly and won, what a mother fucking cheater! I wasn't limiting my words in the confessional anyway after that we were going clubbing but AS WE WERE I complained so much that they let me fix the liner. Everybody was laughing at me but fuck, I tried, after that we went at Tim Hortons and I paid people stuff (my hunger took over), 10$ later we went at the Muzique club (something like that) in VIP in a limousine, I drank too much orange juice/ vodka. They were two weirdos that were flirting with me, one kissed my hand and the other one my cheeks, thank god I had my hair in my face, I hid myself in the bathroom and David went to pick me up, he's an angel! The waitress was just SO nice, after that on the way back we were so fucked up and not on purpose (since this limo was smaller than the other one) we were really restraint as far as space is concerned, I accidentally touched Michael's thigh so Pamela removed it rudely while complaining, Anthony was really mad at how drunk we were and the limo chauffeur almost left us on the side of the highway:( I was leaning on the limo's backdoor to rest a bit and Pamela was bothering me so I said ''get off me fucking bitch'' (it slid by itself, oops!) and then she said ''well you're on your own'' ok. I unfortunately couldn't stop myself from touching Jennifer's breast, I really don't understand why! And she lost my Flower Beauty lipstick in the shade mauve over :( OK! And in the bathroom, Pamela took a snapchat with us so I told her to send it to me and she said 'lmao u have fb?' omg shut the fuck up! We went at McDonald's and I saw Jessica Little from Havre-Jeunesse (high school) oh my fucking god how ashamed I was, and arriving at the lake house we hung out with Noemie and she unblocked me from facebook yay and she told me to be less cry-baby and to sleep less but if not, that she adored me. She was laying on me saying it's comfortable (big boobs) lol I spent the night talking with Pierre-Luc, Anthony and Jennifer, we smoke, finished the champagne bottle lmao I learned that Pamela was a pornstar! Yeah the girl that was saying she was soooooo shy in front of the cameras, I'll do my research! PL seemed serious saying that I'd be eliminated tomorrow yo I'm fucking scared :( Oh, and Noemie thinks Nadia and Melina are fake, Pam and Jen kissed and at McDo's, Noemie almost got into a figh with some 12-13 year old because they were looking at her funny anyway since Pam is here, I'm hiding this notebook underneath my mattress!
In the end, we didn't parachute, but I don't think this surprises anyone. Pamela wanted to read my notebook, as if I was going to show her that I'm bitching her non-stop!
As for the brunch, yeah we were getting bored while they had fun! lol
The makeup challenge with the fact that Melina had a mirror on her palette and that she won frustrated me so bad but in a way that I thought was exaggerated and non-comprehensive but shit that I insulted her in the confession room (I'm not nice).
Except for the vodka and orange juice, I didn't liked clubbing because I was really scared and anxious because of the weird guys and since we were with Noemie, I felt as if we were the freakshow and I don't even know how to dance, so not that fun... but as I said, David helped me, he's a sweetheart.
I remember, we were on the highway, for those who know, between Mascouche and St-Lin at St-Esprit almost and I was PRAYING that he wouldn't leave us on the side of the highway.
One thing that pissed me off, it's that when we're acting like dumbasses GO LET'S FILM but Anthony (Noemie's manager) was shutting down the camera the second that SHE looked like a dumbass and that she was took drunk, I understand why but I still thought it was unfair.
I was really starting not to be able to endure Pamela anymore.
Concerning the lipstick that Jennifer lost, I was scared cause Walmart was discontinuing Flower Beauty at that time BUT I was able to find a full size, THANK GOD!
Saturday
- No sleep night, I really should go to sleep! Eww there was a huge spider in the bed, I killed itt with my hand. Pamela is mad because yesterday, I was so drunk I popped Michael's zit and now it's going to scar him forever (to her saying) anyway it hurt him a lot lol I have a lot of zits too but he's dumb cause I told him to swear not to tell her so she wouldn't be mad at me but he's an hypocrite, so. Challenge of the day: we had to write Noemie a song and sing it to her, and three winners would go out to a restaurant (which we didn't go to yesterday) and Pamela didn't wanted to participate (to the singing contest/ challenge) and the winners were me, Michael and Nadia, and downstars, Pamela was complaining because of that so I told her she just had to participate for fuck sake. And shit went down and Melina was almost crying since we were going in a restaurant she sooooo wanted to go, fucking shit, cry, it'll make you feel better! she was bragging about going to chic restaurants five times per week and that it was costing 500$ each time for three people and now she's doing her spoiled brat, yo I never go at the restaurant at all! Anyway, the diner was super cute and good and we said we'd eliminate Pamela or Jennifer, also, Michael said he liked hanging out with us but that Pamela is too controlling and possessive (no shit) and now it's going to be the eliminations. Me and Michael has been eliminated because Noemie said she didn't wanted to change me. I cried and Pamela was raging cause she thought she'd be the one eliminated. David drove me to Vanessa's (ex best friend) house.
OMG I so remember how mad she was when I couldn't resist popping his zit HAHAHAHAHAHAH I fucking love myself sometimes, the alcohol was an excuse, aww poor thing that I ruined his mannequin face (like I give a shit), it's karma for telling everything to his dumb bitch.
I wish I remembered the song I sand LOL and I seriously couldn't get over the sadness that Melina and Pamela were feeling towards us going out to eat but fuck! I seriously almost never go out to eat (even McDonald's rare) so I just thought Melina was a spoiled brat and concerning Pamela, well you just had to sing if you wanted to read, you suck dick but can't sing rhymes on tape? the fuck outta here.
Diner with Noemie I was so savage, Michael gave me his chicken plate and it's crazy, even after two plates my stomach was growling I was so litteraly STARVING anyway.
I so remember when I didn't have any of my medication left and I told, to Pam, to shut her dumbass mouth up anyway LMAO I was only sad to be eliminated cause we were in the middle of the night! 2am
I was lucky at the time having a best friend living near that let me in in her house because my parents, at two am, couldn't have done two hours and a half of driving.
As much as I was happy to get the fuck out of there, I was dissapointed at myself not being able to make it through the end.
It was making me really angry because I had suffered all of this for nothing.
It's dumb, but after that, I was scared to go out in public, no joke.
The anxiety I was feeling was non-describable.
and returning in the 'real world' almost needed me integration time.
It ain't the cool stuff I thought it'd be.
Anyway, there's probably stuff I forgot to mention.
